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Sleeping with my Subae

Yes, yes. I’ve named my 2015 Subaru Forester, Subae. She IS my Subae. Without her, Violet and I wouldn’t get to travel the country and see the sites. To show her how much I love her, my mother and I (mostly my mother) built a bed for the back of her! It’s designed to fit in the 2/3-size bigger seat when it’s folded down. It stays in the back of my car all of the time because I’m too lazy to take it out, but I’m also really proud of it.

We just took an old memory foam mattress topper and cut two pieces down to the size of the platform, so it’s a thick mattress with some massage table sheets and a couple of fleece blankets. It’s too hot with all of that for the summer, but I do plan on taking it out to southern Colorado at the beginning of next month.

Here are some pictures of it without the mattress and everything.

The slats are from Ikea and were cut down to fit inside the base. The front legs are longer to reach the ground of the back of the Subae, and the back legs are just tall enough to make it (mostly) level. It’s easy to take apart and put back together, so I can take it out to get to my spare tire. I can also lift the back part up and get to it if need be. It’s pretty comfy, and the head of it just sits under the sun roof, so I have a skylight! Violet also got a new bed, because she needed something nice, too. 🙂

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Hers is an inflatable pad made by a company called K9 Sport Sack with Klymit technology. I trust it will hold up to her pretty well. We’ll see in a couple of weeks! Overall, I am super happy with our sleeping arrangement for our trips. I still need to figure out some storage solutions, but we’ve got most everything worked out. I got a new seat cover for the back of the car so it will keep the hair off as much as possible, and I bought a DC vacuum for the car, too. We’re going to make it a home!

What’s My Age Again?

Today I turn 33, which isn’t a particularly significant number beyond me questioning whether I’m 33 or 6 some days. But I wanted to take a moment to reflect on my “fiscal” year, and all that I’ve accomplished since my last birthday. I think this is a tradition I will keep up every year – an annual gratitude post, to thank myself for working so hard on becoming the best me. So, without further ado, check out the progress I made in a year!

  • Started meditating on a daily basis – this is such a big deal for me. I never thought I’d be a person who COULD meditate, much less one that WANTED to meditate. But here I am, freshly writing this blog after listening to my daily Calm.
  • Started seeing a therapist weekly – just this one challenge for the year was worth the struggle it took to get there. I am a different person, more myself, since the day I walked into my therapists office. I’ve made so much progress just in there that I could almost stop the list here!
  • Started an art business – woohoo! This is still a challenge for me, as I am learning how to run a business, market myself, and still create. I love how much work it takes to get noticed, for some reason. It’s nice, though sometimes disheartening, to have such a challenge in front of me.
  • Took my first working roadtrip – my favorite adventure of the year thus far was my recent trip to New Mexico. It was a struggle to find adequate coverage where we were camping all 3 nights, so I had to work around that and figure out how to work while still enjoying all that New Mexico offers in the way of scenery.
  • Began a healthier relationship with food and alcohol – one of the things my therapist recommended was a book called Intuitive Eating. It’s drastically changed my relationship with food and my body, and it’s even helping me control my bingeing habits with things like alcohol and sugar. I am so thrilled with the progress I’ve made on this front!
  • Planned my dream life – this is the biggest one yet. A year ago, I created a dream of what I wanted my life to look like. I wanted to travel, I wanted to create, and I wanted to give my dog and myself the best life possible without being traditional. I set a goal of being “van life” ready by the age of 35. I cannot believe it’s already been a year since I envisioned that dream, and I am actively working towards making it happen!
  • Had my first interview in 7 years – as part of creating my dream life, I know I need flexibility in my work. That means non-traditional work sometimes, and it means remote work. I had my first interview a couple of weeks ago, and while I didn’t get the job, it was refreshing to be looking for a new challenge.

There ya have it – my gratitude, “ta-da” list for the last year. What about you, friends? Do you take time on your birthday to reflect on the last year of your life? A gratitude list is a great way to lift your spirits, and I encourage you all to try it out! You don’t need to share it publicly if you don’t want to, just write it down in a journal or on a piece of paper, and then smile to yourself. You’ll feel better immediately! Until next time, friends!

New Mexico Roadtrip #1

Violet and I took our first working roadtrip this past week! I’ve really wanted to travel the states with her and see the scenery our country has to offer, and I have been encouraged to just do it rather than wait for the perfect time. I bought a laptop tray that connects to my steering wheel, so I’d have a place to set my computer for work, and I upgraded my Sprint plan to the Unlimited Premium, which gave me a 100gb hotspot for $20/month. That also includes Amazon Prime, so win-win for me. I already had Prime, so I don’t get any additional benefit, but that basically makes the hotspot like $8/month or something. Anyway, I do need service to use it and that was a challenge for me since I wanted to stay on public lands. Not a lot of coverage out there! But I made it work by first stopping in a Walmart parking lot and doing some work on Thursday morning, then stopping at a rest area to do some work on Friday morning, then at a Target parking lot to do some work that afternoon. I also did a conference call in my car, which went well considering one of the participants knew I was on the road and one did not. So, how did it go?

 

 

We started the drive up on Wednesday night and stayed at a rest stop a little past Lubbock for about 2 hours, then drove on to a picnic area past Amarillo for about 2 hours. We made it to Trinidad for a quick stop at a Walmart, then took a scenic route on US 64 through Taos (beautiful little town, but spectacular drive through the mountains!!) and on to the Tres Piedras Ranger Station. There I talked with a gentleman who gave me directions to the camping area for my first night – it was in a meadow and it was being used by a bunch of cattle. We made it work but had to spend a lot of time in the car because of the cows and because of the wind – super windy in this state right now! We ate cheese roll-ups in the wind, then went inside because the cows were getting super close; the next morning, I knew I had to get some work done and we weren’t staying at that spot again, so we packed up and headed back to the rest area next to the Rio Grande Gorge Bridge. I wanted to get pictures and knew I had service in that area as it was close to Taos, but the restrooms were locked so that was a bummer. I did walk to the bridge, saw some bighorn sheep (?) on the way, then almost had a panic attack when I took the first step onto the bridge. Turns out, I’m scared of bridges! The height wasn’t the scary part, I just kept expecting the bridge to fall out from underneath me. So, I made it to the center of the bridge, snapped some pictures, hopped over to the other side and snapped some more pictures, and then got off the bridge as quickly as possible. I did a little work at the rest area, then drove on to Santa Fe.

 

 

I wanted to get Violet some snacks because she wasn’t eating her food on the trip (she does this routinely, no biggie), so I looked up a PetSmart in Santa Fe and stopped in for a toy and some freeze-dried chicken bites. I couldn’t find an easy place to grab a bite to eat with her in the car, so I just pulled over to a Target across the street and ran in for a few snacks. We sat in the car and ate snacks while waiting for a conference call to start; after the call, I looked up a campsite on the iOverlander app and found one not too far away and tucked into a canyon. It had one other person at the site, but they were far away from where we parked. They weren’t even there much while we were out there. We set up camp, I just laid the mattress out without even blowing it up, and we ate dinner watching the sunset over the mountains. I did some paintings while the sun was setting, too! It was so lovely, and one of the many reasons I wanted to do this. Violet did great, with only a few barking incidences when people started filling up the parking area and walking by and such. I just put her in the car to settle down for a bit, then she was good again! I got a little work done that didn’t require an Internet connection, then we cleaned up for the night and got in bed. The next morning, after a couple of cups of Copper Cow Coffee, we drove about a mile down the road to a primitive toilet, then stopped in a (closed) Dairy Queen’s parking lot to get directions to Carlsbad.

 

 

The drive to Carlsbad was slow going; I felt like we would never get to our destination, which was the Lincoln National Forest. I knew we wanted to stop at the ranger station, but they closed early for the day as they were not there when we arrived at 3PM. No matter, my iOverlander app got me to a camp spot in the “forest” and it was BEAUTIFUL! There were no other campsites directly around us and we were far enough off the road that you had to be looking for car to see us. There was a fire pit already built, but we didn’t use it. It was still too windy for all that. We sat outside and watched the sunset for a bit, then it got windy enough that I wanted to sit in the car to paint. I painted the sunset over the mountains, then we ate dinner and got ready for bed. I watched the sunset and the moonrise from the back of the Subie with Violet laying right next to me – it was literally what dreams are made of.

 

 

The whole experience was wonderful, but I’ve figured out a few things I am going to need to change. First, we need a better sleeping situation. I have an SUV mattress that only works if you don’t move around a lot, and when the weather is bad, we need a place to spread out, so the mattress may not work for us in the long run. I want to build a platform that goes across the trunk and the 2/3 seat side (where it would be laying down.) That would give us space to spread out. I’m also going to take a tent with us next time, so we have a “storage shed” while we sleep. The only thing that will stay in the car is the food and stuff we need for nighttime. I need a sun shelter so Violet can stay outside some during the day, and I need to get a few things for shading the car during the day, too. I also want to get a camp table – I picked up a $10 Ozark Trail chair on my way out of town, and now I need somewhere to set my food and camp stove, another thing I need to pick up. We need to get our morning and bedtime routines down, and we need to both get used to being outside at night! So, more lights are going to be necessary! Otherwise, we are definitely going to enjoy this style of living. We had so much fun and came home happy and tired. 😊

Lone Star Hiking Trail & More

Over the weekend, my mother and I took our dogs out to the Lone Star Hiking Trail in east Texas – we actually did a part of the LSHT and a part of Little Lake Creek Loop (which is the “& more”.) I’ve been out on this trail a couple of times, and even got lost in this same area once before. Really, I was misplaced and naive about the amount of knowledge required to undertake a backpacking trip in a national forest. Since then, I’ve taken a navigation course and started using Gaia GPS to track  my routes. We even got misplaced at the beginning this time but were able to meet up with the trail pretty quickly thanks to our GPS app! All that said, this was still a learning experience for me.

First, it was wet and muddy and cold. The temps were in the mid-40s on Saturday, so we starting in long-sleeved shirts + fleece jackets. We wore those the entire day; we got drizzled on a little, but no serious rain. The challenge, though, was that over 50% of our trail was ankle-deep mud and water. My boots and socks were soaked through within 30 minutes of starting on Saturday morning, and they still aren’t dry on Tuesday. I’m not sure that I’ll EVER get all of the mud out of my boots! This also meant that it was a challenge to find dry places to sleep – we did find a decent area to camp, though it was surrounded by briars (I have some 3 dozen briar cuts on my legs and hands, plus they got my fancy sleeping quilt in one spot) and anywhere we tread for very long became muddy, so we couldn’t enter the tents very often for fear of sinking a few inches, and my tent would barely stay standing because the dirt was so loose. Even with all of this, though, it was a really fun trip.

This was my first backpacking trip with a campfire. Normally I’m in state parks where it isn’t allowed, but as long as there isn’t a burn ban, we’re okay out here. And as wet as it was, it was a pretty pitiful fire. We kept it going for a few hours and it gave us time to chat and wind down with the pups. I made broccoli, rice, and beef in my Keith Titanium Multifunctional Cooker – it turned out amazing, and it was great to have a hot dinner after a cold hike and before a cold night. We ended up in our tents by 6:30PM, as it was getting dark and we were exhausted and cold. I fell asleep within 30 minutes and slept like a rock until about 9:30 when some guys came down a logging road with their headlamps on. Violet did pretty well in the tent until about 4:45 in the morning when a stake came loose and the tent started collapsing on her side. Note to self: get some bigger stakes for loose soil.

The dogs has so much fun – Jack, my mom’s boxer, has never been backpacking or slept in a tent, so this was an entirely new experience for him. Violet has never been in a national forest (we’ve only done easy state parks so far), so this was the most wild place she was going to experience with me. She’s a delicate flower when it comes to her feet, but she stomped through the mud and water like it was her birthday. She rolled around in the leaves and dug holes in the leaves and dirt. They barked at strangers and growled at other dogs, but they overall did really great when it came to people passing us on the trail. Violet’s the worst about it, of course! The best part is how great they did on the scary parts – we had a couple of 6 to 8-feet deep ravines that had water in the bottom. They were steep, with minimal in the way of hand and footholds. But Violet must be part mountain goat because she climbs right down, scopes out the terrain, and heads straight up, giving me a little extra pull to claw my way up the other side. I was so freakin’ proud of her. Honestly, she amazes me every time I take her outdoors. We need to do it more, and that is one of my intentions for the year. We made it 6 miles on Saturday, then had an easy 1 mile hike out on Sunday. It was still wet and muddy, with us passing through some swampy areas and another deep ravine (this one had steps!)

The whole trip was such a blast. Mom and I will do this again, though I think we’re going to shoot for a less rainy season. I will take Violet out again at the latest in April, earliest in March. And we’re investing in a pair of waterproof boots after this venture! I love my Xero Shoes Daylite Hikers, but I would have killed for a pair of boots to keep my feet reasonably dry. Lessons learned!

Bastrop State Park – Day Hiking

Sometimes I avoid taking Violet out on day hikes because she is such a reactive dog. She can manage well enough when it’s just people, but not so well when there are other dogs. I think the best way for her to get over her fear and anxiety is to just go out and explore. So, we did just that on Saturday – it was a windy, cool day thanks to a rainy front that came in Friday night, and I needed to meet up with someone to sell a backpacking quilt. Bastrop State Park happened to be right in between the buyer of my quilt and me, so I packed up our stuff on Friday night to have a sunny Saturday hike.

 

Because I’d never been to this park, I really wasn’t sure what to expect from the terrain and foliage. Ultimately, it was scrubby and had very little tree cover, but it wasn’t especially hot thanks to the wind. We passed tons of wild blackberry bushes, though they weren’t ripe yet. We started on the less-touristy side of the park before making our way over to the more commonly used areas.

Once we moved over to where the Lost Pines Loop would be, we encountered a few more people and dogs. Violet was doing SO well while I chatted with a couple and their pup, but she lunged right at the end of the conversation. Thankfully, they were far enough away that no danger was ever present, but I really have to keep an eye on Violet when another dog is giving her the stare down. We passed another couple later down the trail, but I pulled Violet off to the side into some brush and held her collar while giving her head scritches until they passed. The guy asked if she was friendly, but I told him she was scared and it’s just easier to be off to the side for everyone to pass.

 

Wildflowers peeked through rocks and scrubby underbrush, and blackberry bushes were proliferate. We probably spent about an hour and a half just exploring, then I felt that Violet needed to get home and calm down. Like a toddler, sometimes she gets overstimulated. 😉

 

The last picture: “Violet, look at me!” ❤️

Gear Shift – Pup Gear Shakedown

Before I got Violet, my biggest backpacking “goal”, beyond just going as many places as possible, was to reduce my pack weight as low as I could comfortably stand. I fancied myself an ultralighter, or at least aspiring ultralighter, and I meticulously weighed every single item I purchased. Fast forward to our first backpacking trip together, and I have an entirely new perspective on being comfortable in the outdoors. Don’t get me wrong – dogs don’t need luxury any more than humans do. Violet would eat her dinner right off the ground if I fed it to her that way, but we’re not trying to be uncomfortable. We want to enjoy our time outside, and sometimes that means we need to pack a little more.

I still meticulously weigh every single item I purchase, okay. I use GearGrams to keep a comprehensive list of all of my gear, as well as track my gear by trip and season. You can toggle between measurement units, which is a handy feature. I have a separate list just for Violet’s gear, because there still isn’t a lot of “ultralight” gear for dogs and weight is really important to both of us.

Here’s a rundown of what we took for Violet’s first trip, along with the weights in ounces (some of this I carried, some of it she carried) :

  • Outward Hound DayPak – 9.6 ounces
  • Mammut Alpine Mat UL – 3.1 ounces (cut in half to fit Violet’s body length, R-Value is 1.2, which is sufficient for 3-seasons for Vi as she is a warm sleeper)
  • Big Agnes Kings Canyon Quilt – 16.5 ounces (this is WAY more bag than she needs, so we’ll be adjusting our bag options for sure)
  • Fozzils Dish Container – 1.4 ounces
  • Outward Hound Cinch Top Bowl – 1.6 ounces
  • PackTowl UltraSoft Body Towel – 6.4 ounces
  • MLD Rain Kilt – 2.1 ounces (this serves a rain protection for my bottom half, a ground cloth when neither of us wants to get wet or dirty, and I’m going to figure out how to make it into a poncho of sorts for Violet)

I carried her quilt, sleeping pad, and food dish in my bag, and she carried the rest of her stuff, plus the rain gear & bathroom items. Since it is going to get hot in Texas soon, I am probably going to have to start the hunt for a good pair of all-weather booties (she has front dewclaws, so that’s a challenge.) The ground gets really hot here and I don’t want to risk injury to her paws. But her pack works fine for the weight we’re working with now, and it’ll take some time for us to work out the most comfortable sleeping arrangement. I suspect I’m going to get double pads & quilts and we’ll just snooze together.

The Adventure Begins…

When I began my backpacking journey in 2015, I started a blog to share the experience with my friends and family. I didn’t keep up with it regularly as I usually came back exhausted from my trips and went right back into work. All of my trips were alone, with one exception, and everyone was worried about me every time I took off on another trip – rightfully so, I will say, because backpacking alone is indeed a very risky venture. So, I decided a dog would be a good partner because I didn’t want to deal with coordinating with people, but I wanted the security. When I decided to share with everyone all of my adventures with my sweet pup, Violet, I wanted a fresh start. You see, Violet gave ME a fresh start as much as I gave her a fresh start.

I “rescued” (she’s a strong, independent doggo who don’t need no knight in shining armor!) Violet on November 26, 2017 from Austin Pets Alive!. I had my eye on another pup I found on their website, and I rushed back from a quick Thanksgiving trip to the Great Sands Dunes National Park because I didn’t want that pup to be adopted before I met her. Well, long story short, that pup was just not interested in me, and ultimately was not a good fit according to their adoption counselors (who are amazing, btw), so they gave me a list of dogs that might fit my lifestyle. I went to see them all, but couldn’t find a connection with any of them.

Violet’s kennel was a few down from the last dog on the list, and every time I walked by her kennel she barked for me to come closer; she was even doing little tap dances with her feet! They didn’t have a ton of information on her, just that she wasn’t particularly great with kids or cats , she was fearful of people and other dogs, but she was housebroken. She was shy and timid when we went into a large fenced area to get to know each other. She would take treats for tricks, but was clearly beaten down over the shelter experience. This was my girl.

I will admit that I knew nothing about what it means to be a fearful dog, and I have had to learn a lot about dog body language & behaviors, as well as my own patience. Yesterday marked 4 months together, and I cannot express how happy I am at her improvement in this short time. She weighed 38 pounds when I got her, and now she’s at a healthy 45-ish. Where she wouldn’t get in the car with me the day I got her (I had to get into the backseat first and show her it was okay), now she wants to make a pass by it on our walks to see if she can trick me into taking her somewhere. She loves going anywhere with me, but she’s not necessarily a Velcro dog. She’ll gladly go into another room if she wants some space.

We took our first overnight backpacking trip a week ago, and it was honestly one of my favorite trips so far. I’ll share more about that in my next post, but for now I will say that I am enormously grateful that Violet asked me to be a part of her life. A dog’s love is unique and boundless.